Something horrible happened after I was admitted to the hospital from the ER; I won't go into all of the specifics, but--in a nutshell--the admitting doctor refused to let me see a pain management specialist! He wouldn't even talk to MY pain management doctor on the phone (so that my doctor could assure him that I truly DO suffer from a chronic pain illness and that I hadn't gone to the hospital just in order to score some new pills.) The NERVE of this man--insinuating that I am less than a model citizen and that I lacked character. Basically, that's what he was saying. He yelled at me; I yelled back at him! Ultimately, I left the hospital in more pain than when I arrived at the ER just 16 hours earlier!
A lot more happened than that, but I'm so incredibly sore and tired, I don't want to go into it right now. I think I will tell you this one other thing (hey Gyrobo, I think you'll like this!): I kept waking up with blood on my pillow-so I assumed it was my incision that was oozing, as incisions tend to do after surgery. No such luck. It turns out that I had about six needles stuck into my skull so that my pain management physiologist Dr. Rao--a very kind and funny man from India, whom I love to death--could monitor my brain waves and nerve reactions. This enabled him to tell my neurosurgeon, Dr. Chun, when he was getting too close to my spinal chord. Well, it was one of the puncture wounds from the needle that kept bleeding onto my pillow. The needles he used were about the size of acupuncture needles (extremely tiny in diameter), which made me wonder how such a tiny hole could bleed so profusely. That's when Dr. Rao--whose office I visited yesterday--told me that one of the needles was larger than all of the rest and had to be screwed into my skull!!! EEEeeewwww! I have this hole in the side of my head that is about 1/3 the size of a dime. That's pretty big!
Well, that's it for now. I am on very high levels of medication right now, and I am unable to move around freely--I am supposed to stay in bed for at least the next two weeks. I will not be posting anything during those two weeks. However, if I get up the strength, I will check in to read your comments.
Thank you for all of your well wishes. By the way, I am happy to report that meditation, contemplation, and being in the company of friends and family are the three things (besides the drugs!) that have gotten me this far along on my recovery: my doctor surely wasn't joking when he said that this recovery would be ten times worse than my last surgery!
I hope this finds YOU well.
Enjoy your Thanksgiving!
tags: Jaibhakti, Bhakti Brophy, spinal surgery, Dr. Jay Chun, Dr. Rajesh Rao,