Getting Out of the Blue Funk; or Who's on First?

I love the Holly Golightly character in the movie Breakfast at Tiffany's. She's an anomaly. She's childlike; yet takes $50 for the powder room. She's innocent; yet steals from a five and dime. She wants love more than anything in the world; yet she creates an air of detachment from every soul she crosses paths with. (This facade is broken down when she gets reunited with her cat, appropriately enough named 'Cat', at the end of the movie.) My favorite thing about Holly Golightly is the way she classifies the 'blues'.

You see, today I woke up in what I like to call a blue funk. Holly Golightly would refer to this state as having a 'case of the mean reds: you know, when you are blue but you don't know why so you have the mean reds?" I think that's the worse case of the blues: when you don't know why!

I've been meditating and doing self-inquiry long enough to know that there's several things I can do to deal with this mood:

1. I can meditate and wait for the cloud-like feeling that is hovering over my heart to dissipate in the heart energy.
2. I can read a book that I know will get me out of the funk, or at least take my mind off the funk. (This would have to be a book that has the power to actually influence my state of mind, like some kind of spiritual book. If I simply read something humorous, that might work as a bandaide, masking the emotions rather than helping me transmute them back to the heart energy.)
3. I could beat myself up and constantly question 'Why am I in this mood? When is this going to end?" (I know this won't work. Like I said, it would only work to beat myself up. However, this awareness does wake me up to the fact that this mood needs to be addressed in some way.)
4. I could just accept the mood and move on.

I tend to start with #3. It's when I realize that I'm beating myself up that I go to #1. If that doesn't work, I revert to #4.

So, I woke up in this funk--which could simply be a byproduct of the health issues I've been dealing with lately--and I just didn't feel motivated to do anything today. I sat for awhile with the funk, then I decided to turn on the computer. I came upon this blog in which someone was stating that he no longer believed in the existence of God. The statement was very matter of fact, but it wasn't as if all hope was lost. This person knew that there was something directing the ways of the world, yet didn't think it was 'God', per se.

Okay...so what would happen if we threw away the word 'God' for a minute. Maybe that word holds too many limitations or adverse feelings for some people. Let's just ask the question: IS THERE AN UNDERLYING CURRENT THAT CAUSES MANIFESTATION OF EVERYTHING IN THE WORLD?

Let's look at the heartbeat. Who or what is beating the heart? What about the breath: who or what is causing us to breathe? Every thing in the world contains atoms: who or what is making the nucleus of the atom throb?

Think about it. There is an underlying current that exists in all things. The question is how do we get our head around it? How do we make sense about it? The answer, in my experience, is that we can't intellectualize this concept. That's more confusing than trying to figure out who's on first. However, we can tap into this current; this energy. Self-inquiry is the key.

The atheistic blog post was exactly what I needed to read today to help me get out of my funk. How could I stay in a funk when I know that I have the tools to reconnect with the loving heart energy, the bliss and joy that is innate to every human being? I have work to do. I need to take the energy of the funk and take it for what it is: it's a funk. And like all funks, this too shall pass. Underlying this funk is a loving current I call 'God', or Shakti, or the Holy Spirit. Whatever you call it, or don't call it, I believe it's there waiting to reveal itself in all of its glory. It's the 'treasure chest' I wrote about at the end of the GREETINGS post last month.

Happy wishes to you all.